You would rather not think it. But, it's absolutely true. Before I go any further try and ask yourself this question: "What do I offer this world? In what way can I calm down the people I consider close in my life?"
If you have to either, as you might think, over think this issue, or idealize that it has some sort of meaning that you cannot place, then I promise you, you are destined for my company. This is company both you and I need, I assure you.
Don't worry my good friend, I'll show you. Even in the most unpredictable of times, you will find yourself needing my expression, my casual glance and laugh. The primary problem, which we can't deny, is that it fits us. We are connected like long lost brothers. And why is this so? Do we really want to believe that the people closest in our lives have dwarfed us to this point of social ineptitude? We are crippled as we try to normally relate to others. We are a strange breed, my friend, but it suits us well.
In one of our worst moments, you will believe that I'm trying to assert my dominance over you, to show you how much more of a "man" I am. The opposite could not be more true. What does it mean to be a man? This is something I wonder about, as do you.
I irritate you and you can't understand why. You are irritated at yourself because of it. You don't feel normal. I feel the same my friend, but we are different people with different minds. My anxiety is a part of my mind that is never ending and no matter how many sedatives I take, I will never know what it is like to feel blissfully still in relaxation. There's a certain pain that we can inadvertently trigger in each other, though we wish we didn't. These pains we feel are a kind of madness that has always connected us.
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